Alright maybe too much of IT in Organization, hence the title.


Anyway, just a warning, it would be a rant post. It's been a while since I've posted anything here at all. BLAME the workload ! Practical to be handed up and assessed every single week, assignments pouring in, trying to cope with the syllabus instead of re-living what happened last semester.


RIGHT. So I was just wondering to myself earlier today. It all started when i saw the Microsoft ARC Mouse i wanted and it costs RM169. Obviously that's a lot and i thought about paying it for myself, but the numbers in my bank account stopped me. I've always been using my own money for a lot things i need or want. Like for example, my bicycle parts. 


Honestly, the amount i get for my allowance a month isn't exactly a lot. It's almost impossible for me to save up because, as some of you know, i eat A LOT. So whenever i needed a bike part, the only way i could get money is to STARVE. By that, i could maybe save like 50 bucks a month? And that leaded me to another thought.


My parents are open in their own way. Yes, they allow me to do quite a lot things and have tattoos and etc.. But they are not exactly supportive. The support i meant here isn't what you call, the BIG type of support. Yes, they do support me a lot already, putting me into a good university and all. But the support that i'm talking about here is, for example, giving words of encouragement or just support my love for music and sports. For those of you who knows me quite well, knows that i'm a big guitar freak and i love my bike to bits. Well, the support here meant that, my parents are't really that supportive of what i'd like to do. Like, me riding my bike. 




 I don't really go to them for advice or to tell them things, i'd rather keep them to myself. WHY? It comes down to support again. This led to another thing.


I envy my cousin, because my uncle is very supportive on what he does, in terms of sports, entertainment, music etc. But for me, my parents don't really support me in my biking or music. I'd like to have a good guitar, but dad always said that a good guitar is not needed because i'm not going or not professional in it. But it's a hobby right? And it's productive. Same goes to biking. Yes, i've neglected my studies to go ride my bike during high school but i've lessen it by A LOT already. But still, i've got no support and in the end, i always starve to get the parts i need. 


This leading thing from one to another is quite like Inception, isn't it? :P


Well, what i might sound like some spoilt whimpy kid who wants everything in the world, but no. That's a totally different thing. All i want is some support in what i'd love to do, which is music and sports. Alright, maybe music OR sports. The reason why i don't tell things to my parents is because, whenever i strike up a conversation about biking or something, it'll be directed straight to either studies or getting scolded in the end. Oh well. 


But still, i'm very thankful on where i am and who i am today. 


It's not like i'm doing drugs or i'm smoking, right? I'm just wanting to get some support in my sport or music activities. It's productive and healthy ! :D




On another note,
I can't take people who play with other people's feelings. I might have done it before without noticing, and i'm sorry, but i always make sure i don't. 


Please, if there's a he/she that likes you, please just tell early if you're not interested, instead of playing with their FEELINGS and make use of them. It's FUCKING hurtful to them, i tell you. I've been there.. trust me. I've been played and made used of. I won't point fingers here, only i and my closests knows. 


This is life. And i was just wondering. :)


Unless that fella deserves it. LOL